true colors.

You with the sad eyes

Don't be discouraged

Oh I realize

It's hard to take courage

In a world full of people

You can lose sight of it all

The darkness inside you

Can make you feel so small

 

Show me a smile then,

Don't be unhappy

Can't remember

When I last saw you laughing

If this world makes you crazy

And you've taken all you can bear

Just call me up

Cause I will always be there

And I'll see your true colors

Shining through

I see your true colors

And that's why I love you

So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors

True colors are beautiful,

Like a rainbow

 

[True Colors by Cyndi Lauper]

 

you know, words are not my strongest asset. i don't easily utter my thoughts and feelings especially publicly. frankly, i'm not comfortable with too much of expressions but i'll try to. tarbiyah moulds and change, yay? what i can say is please be yourself, live up to the expectation of Allah and not other people. be yourself, don't try hard to impress people but instead try hard to impress Allah. be yourself, your true colours are beautiful like rainbows.

 

rekindle.

finally, the first hangout of ahlul huda this year! planned it since the early semester but everyone was so occupied. yet we managed to go out and have something done together last night. alhamdulillah with all the blessings..

 

[Roza, 25052016]

 

ukhuwwah: a powerful word. when we don't feel any, complaining is easy. but hey it's us who need to work on it, have efforts to light it up! rekindle the ukhuwwah..

 

nuh.

might get emotional tonight. gonna share on my favourite surah in juz tabarak in our halaqah usari.

surah nuh.

And said, 'Ask forgiveness of your Lord. Indeed, He is ever a Perpetual Forgiver. He will send [rain from] the sky upon you in [continuing] showers. And give you increase in wealth and children and provide for you gardens and provide for you rivers. [Nuh 71 : 10-12]

istighfar, the key solution to everything! it's just the matter of how do we really internalizing our istighfar. asking, wanting and acting towards it, that is the real istighfar. don't just ask for forgiveness, mean it when we say we want it and have efforts on gaining the forgiveness. may we improve on our daily istighfar. ameen ameen ameen.

approaching ramadhan real soon insyaAllah. another 18 days. may we get the chance to practice the real istighfar in this holy month of forgiveness. Allahumma ballighna ramadhan! ameen ameen ameen.

 

meneladani zun-nun.

[Geelong, 25122015]
 

Gelora perjalanan ku

Perubahan yang membahang, membahang rasa

Kecewa melanda diri

Dikabur duniawi

Dalam gelita selubungi ku

Saat ku mengenangkan khilaf lalu

Berlari ku menggapai sunyi yang memanggil

Mencari Ilahi

Merenung membuang waktu

Sepurnama tak kunjung tiba

Cahaya kian tenggelam

Dimamah suram

Menguji rohani

Diulit mimpi ngeri yang menghiris diri

Hilanglah sinar suria terangi mata

Yang makin pudar

Kegelapan meragut tangisan

Jeritan yang tak kesampaian

Dibahu lautan rebah laungan

Mengharap tulus keampunan

Dalam kegelapan

لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ
لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ

Tidak ada Tuhan selain Engkau

Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah

Sesungguhnya aku adalah termasuk

Dalam golongan orang-orang yang zalim

 

dalam kegelapan by adira. and this, among my all-time favourite du'a. certainly praises are only for Allah and we are the wrong doer. taubah!