dear me.

Know yourself to get to know God.

some say it is a hadith. some others say it is maudhu' (fabricated). anyway, i am in no position to discuss about this and debating is just none of my interest. let us just take a few seconds and ponder on how far this statement is actually true. for me, it is somehow very true to an extent and very inspiring me to get to know myself better.

and daie, it is crucial to get to know yourself. why? for the same reason that we do not compromise other things particularly da'wah. bare in mind, the chances to do da'wah do not come only when we are prepared for it. last night i had my mutarabbi spill out that she no longer had depression. at first i thought it was minor but i still took it seriously and had a few readings on that. now that she's over it, i am still thinking. maybe not the exact worry but close enough that some people do not think they have it. stress. the thought of it is often misleading. i myself did not know i had stress before. mind you, stress is not only when you have emotional disturbance but it can be as subtle as energy depletion.

the signs maybe different for each of us. one of mine is fatigue. i sleep five to six hours a day and i seldom need extra nap for extra recharging. when i am under stress, i can easily sleep for seven to eight hours (i usually automatically get up when i have enough sleep). that is fairly obvious that it is not my usual body clock especially when i can sleep at any time during the day (i usually just sleep at night)

 

others are mouth ulcers, late menstruation and lack of focus. inevitably it will be different for other people. so please be sensitive to the changes. experimenting with yourselves and observe more. sometimes we believe things to be normal but apparently it is eating us inside. once detected, try to use any means to avoid stress or at least reduce the impacts.

ultimately, no doubt that  Allah knows us more than we know ourselves but we know ourselves better than people do know ourselves. so let us help ourselves to help others.