it's me.

ini fareha? mana mungkin!

basmalah wa hamdalah.

only Allah deserves all praises. The Ahad. The One and Only. and us? we might be one for each of us. yet dynamic.
we are dynamic for we undergo changes in lives. both physically and mentally. but here I don't mean through aging. but maturing and learning from experiences. and of course tarbiyyah. and there will come questions and challenges.

but hey! just stay still. He will always be there :)

few years back, even up until today. people around me are surprised to see me. or should I say, the 'changed' me?
or the 'unexpected' part of me? haha. today's statement from a dear friend drives me to pour things out. huhu.

my dressings are mentioned. my point of view about things are questioned. my changing interests are noticed.

the way I talk. the way I write. the books I read. the quran tafseer that I have. the usrah that I have. the recordings that I listen to. this and that. and many things. 

and frankly, I didn't even realize how much things have changed. maybe not much from what I see. but others see them differently. and alhamdulillah. I am happy the way I am now compared to the way I was before. I am not from a family bounded with tarbiyyah background. but He choose me and I'm happy with it. tsumma alhamdulillah. these are what I gain from dakwah and tarbiyyah. the favors from Allah that I really want to hold on with. may Allah ease me and all of us. ameen.

  

"The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it."

-Morrie Schwarts.

that is why people change. this is why I want to change. I agreed with Morrie. so don't buy it. hehe. turn over to other things. other cultures. need strength? Allah The Almighty has it :)

I hope I can be like the brothers and sisters from the muslim brotherhood. wherever they go, people know. they reflect the muslim brotherhood itself. bring the image of good Islam. show others the best deen ever. but not to forget,
be yourself, because everybody else is already taken ;)

I may still be hiding all this while. I'll try to uncover myself. maybe start from the littlest thing. the odyssey, insyaAllah :)

footnote : ramadhan tiba! ramadhan tiba! ramadhan tiba! marhaban ya ramadhan. strings of lyric from opick.
love this song so much. hopefully we perform better for this coming ramadhan, insyaAllah. Allahumma ameen..