Tuesday, September 30, 2014


people ask on what is my favourite surah in the quran. when i said at-taubah, some are amazed. they said it is such a hard surah unlike az-zumar or al-insan and the others that speaks about nikmah and everything. i simply don't have the exact answer. i just love it. and of course i also love the other ayah from the other surah. they are kalamullah. how can we not like it regardless of what we feel.

and for this coming daurah, we were asked to share our favourite ayah in the quran with our secret buddy. well  for my yet-to-know buddy (even though i know you will not probably know me now and read this), my favourite ayah in the quran is,

and be patient for the sake of your Lord [74:7]

dear fareha, be patient for the sake of Allah!
and dear secret buddy, i'm looking forward to seeing you lillahi ta'ala :)

Friday, September 19, 2014

You're there.

No matter what the world brings
And even if the birds won't sing
Better times are on their way
‘Cause I know You're there
And even if the sun won't smile,
I know it's been a while
Since I've felt any light,
But I know You're there
You're there by raef.

Thursday, September 18, 2014


The last few days, ayah gentlemanly texted me. It was unusual that ayah privately text his daughters but there he was. Asking me how was i doing, how was my financial state and what not. And today mak asked the same thing.

Parents. That is just how they are. We do not even have to say, but they know it, they feel it.

It was actually my bad. It has been a while that i did not call them. The last time was maybe last month as far as i can remember. I was preoccupied with things that i do not even aware as if i was the busiest person in the world where in fact i was not indeed.

The blame was all on me. This morning after the proteomics tutorial, my friends were asking me whether i am okay or not. I simply replied i was fine but one of them said i did not look fine at all. I was taken aback. I feel okay but did i look not okay instead? I said that maybe these couple of weeks have been tough that i could not get good rest.

Then my saudi friend asked me how was my family back then in malaysia. I was clueless. When was the last time i speak to mak and ayah? I could not exactly remember. Then she said that it is the reason behind all these. I did not call my parents and i shall call them as soon as possible.

Ighfirli Ya Rabb! Ighfirli Ya Rabb!

For me and all the readers, do good to our parents. Do good to our parents and cherish them while we still can.

Narrated by Abu Bakr:

Rasulullah saw said thrice, "Shall I not inform you of the biggest of the great sins?" We said, "Yes, O Rasulullah" He said, "To join partners in worship with Allah: to be undutiful to one's parents." The Prophet sat up after he had been reclining and added, "And I warn you against giving forged statement and a false witness; I warn you against giving a forged statement and a false witness." The Prophet kept on saying that warning till we thought that he would not stop.

(Sahih Bukhari ,Volume 8, Book 73, Number 7)

This reminds me of rasya. Dear little mujahidah rasya rayyan, even though your mama is not there for you anymore, you will always have us. InsyaAllah, insyaAllah.

Allah is The Most forgiving and The Most Merciful.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014


teringat perbualan telefon dengan seorang ukhti yang jauh di bumi turki beberapa bulan yang lalu:

quoted from jom edisi 10,
penyembuh penyakit hati adalah ilmu dan amal.

wahai! memang tak mudah menjaga hati. tapi ketahuilah mujahadah itu besar nilainya!

dan kerana mujahadah tu tak sama untuk semua orang, janganlah sesekali memandang rendah usaha seseorang itu. lain orang lain mujahadahnya. hanya Allah Yang Maha Tahu lagi Maha Bijaksana yang mampu menilai setiap sesuatu.

dan lagi sekali, menjaga hati. menjaga hati.

Monday, September 15, 2014

witness unto mankind.

another sharing session with the sisters on the book witness unto mankind by syed abul a'la al-maududi. hits me right as i left the sharing session. and frankly, it has always been like that. it was not easy for me to have the sharing sessions as eye openers. but with the love and bless of Allah, i felt and try to live it as time goes by. so subtle indeed. and i know this is the best. alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah, please guide us and don't let us astray!
ameen ameen ameen.

diary : dr firth once said to us, she don't believe in writer's block. why? just write.
no block and as simple as that.

Monday, September 8, 2014

giving the other only when you have surplus

It is always possible to not have the same point of view even though we are in the same jamaah.
As the malay saying goes,

"Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain."

So there comes syura. And that also teaches us the lowest level of ukhuwwah.

The lowest level of ukhuwwah is,
Giving the other only when you have surplus.
(Imam Al-Ghazali)

People give and take. People share. People say things.
Some may ignore, some may get hurt, others just take it as it is.
And again give the other only when you have surplus.

Beauty of islam.

Dear ukhti asked me what is ukhuwwah. I simply replied,

"Ice cream. Flavourful. But beware that we might get toothache or brain freeze. Even so, it is the sweetness that we often remember.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014



dear ukhti,
i may not be in the same boat as you were.
i may not feel as exactly what you felt.
i may not help you overcome everything,
nor can't i prevent everything.

but know this,
i'm all ears,

and i know you know,
He knows what we are about to tell him in the du'a,
yet He still listens.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

our night.

i said to them,
"in times of drained and tense, i'll remember and cherish this moment."

very much i will. thank you Allah. thank you ahlul khalesyah.


Friends on that day will be foes, one to another,- except the Righteous.
(QS Az-Zukhruf 43:67 )

may we be among those that are righteous. ameen ameen ameen.