Friday, May 27, 2016

true colors.

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
The darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small
Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up
Cause I will always be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
[True Colors by Cyndi Lauper]
you know, words are not my strongest asset. i don't easily utter my thoughts and feelings especially publicly. frankly, i'm not comfortable with too much of expressions but i'll try to. tarbiyah moulds and change, yay? what i can say is please be yourself, live up to the expectation of Allah and not other people. be yourself, don't try hard to impress people but instead try hard to impress Allah. be yourself, your true colours are beautiful like rainbows.

Thursday, May 26, 2016


finally, the first hangout of ahlul huda this year! planned it since the early semester but everyone was so occupied. yet we managed to go out and have something done together last night. alhamdulillah with all the blessings..
[Roza, 25052016]
ukhuwwah: a powerful word. when we don't feel any, complaining is easy. but hey it's us who need to work on it, have efforts to light it up! rekindle the ukhuwwah..

Thursday, May 19, 2016


might get emotional tonight. gonna share on my favourite surah in juz tabarak in our halaqah usari.
surah nuh.

And said, 'Ask forgiveness of your Lord. Indeed, He is ever a Perpetual Forgiver. He will send [rain from] the sky upon you in [continuing] showers. And give you increase in wealth and children and provide for you gardens and provide for you rivers. [Nuh 71 : 10-12]

istighfar, the key solution to everything! it's just the matter of how do we really internalizing our istighfar. asking, wanting and acting towards it, that is the real istighfar. don't just ask for forgiveness, mean it when we say we want it and have efforts on gaining the forgiveness. may we improve on our daily istighfar. ameen ameen ameen.

approaching ramadhan real soon insyaAllah. another 18 days. may we get the chance to practice the real istighfar in this holy month of forgiveness. Allahumma ballighna ramadhan! ameen ameen ameen.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

meneladani zun-nun.

[Geelong, 25122015]
Gelora perjalanan ku
Perubahan yang membahang, membahang rasa
Kecewa melanda diri
Dikabur duniawi

Dalam gelita selubungi ku
Saat ku mengenangkan khilaf lalu
Berlari ku menggapai sunyi yang memanggil
Mencari Ilahi

Merenung membuang waktu
Sepurnama tak kunjung tiba
Cahaya kian tenggelam
Dimamah suram

Menguji rohani
Diulit mimpi ngeri yang menghiris diri
Hilanglah sinar suria terangi mata
Yang makin pudar

Kegelapan meragut tangisan
Jeritan yang tak kesampaian
Dibahu lautan rebah laungan
Mengharap tulus keampunan
Dalam kegelapan

لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ
لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ

Tidak ada Tuhan selain Engkau
Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah
Sesungguhnya aku adalah termasuk
Dalam golongan orang-orang yang zalim
dalam kegelapan by adira. and this, among my all-time favourite du'a. certainly praises are only for Allah and we are the wrong doer. taubah!