Wednesday, March 16, 2016

autumn in my heart.

one of today's extraordinary task was to paint the water feature. hmm i wonder why christine wanted all the greens to be painted red? because it's autumn i guess. hence, the colour.
(parkville gardens, 16/3/16)
if only it's easy to paint the days with bright colours. but of course it's not haha. whatever it is, face up and heart wide open, enjoy the life!

Saturday, March 12, 2016

dear me.

Know yourself to get to know God.

some say it is a hadith. some others say it is maudhu' (fabricated). anyway, i am in no position to discuss about this and debating is just none of my interest. let us just take a few seconds and ponder on how far this statement is actually true. for me, it is somehow very true to an extent and very inspiring me to get to know myself better.

and daie, it is crucial to get to know yourself. why? for the same reason that we do not compromise other things particularly da'wah. bare in mind, the chances to do da'wah do not come only when we are prepared for it. last night i had my mutarabbi spill out that she no longer had depression. at first i thought it was minor but i still took it seriously and had a few readings on that. now that she's over it, i am still thinking. maybe not the exact worry but close enough that some people do not think they have it. stress. the thought of it is often misleading. i myself did not know i had stress before. mind you, stress is not only when you have emotional disturbance but it can be as subtle as energy depletion.

the signs maybe different for each of us. one of mine is fatigue. i sleep five to six hours a day and i seldom need extra nap for extra recharging. when i am under stress, i can easily sleep for seven to eight hours (i usually automatically get up when i have enough sleep). that is fairly obvious that it is not my usual body clock especially when i can sleep at any time during the day (i usually just sleep at night)
others are mouth ulcers, late menstruation and lack of focus. inevitably it will be different for other people. so please be sensitive to the changes. experimenting with yourselves and observe more. sometimes we believe things to be normal but apparently it is eating us inside. once detected, try to use any means to avoid stress or at least reduce the impacts.

ultimately, no doubt that  Allah knows us more than we know ourselves but we know ourselves better than people do know ourselves. so let us help ourselves to help others.

Saturday, March 5, 2016



الأَرْوَاحُ جُنُوْدٌ مُجَنَّدَةٌ فَمَا تَعَارَفَ مِنْهَا ائْتَلَفَ وَمَا تَنَاكَرَا مِنْهَا اخْتَلَفَ

Ruh-ruh itu seperti tentera yang berhimpun yang saling berhadapan. Apabila mereka saling mengenal (sifatnya dan kecenderungannya) maka mereka akan saling bersatu, dan apabila saling berselisih maka mereka akan tercerai-berai.
 (HR Bukhari Muslim)
(puffing billy, 11/14)
(princess park, 4/15)
(hiyc, 11/15)
mengimbau kembali sejarah usrah hampir dua tahun di bumi down under ini. i truly learned a lot. terima kasih murobbi sekalian. semoga Allah sentiasa membuka pintu hidayah ke hati-hati kita dan menunjukkan kita jalan yang lurus menujuNya. ameen ameen ameen.