Monday, February 29, 2016


i recall the last daurah i attended at bundoora. a very dear sister asked me about my 'shifted life timeline'. since a few things are unsuccessfully completed on time according to the previous timeline, i made some changes to it. extension and deletion.
pursuing to doctoral level is unfortunately no longer in the list. i guess lecturer at the moment is just a job i can only dream of? to be honest, i cried. but i'm not sure though is it because i feel like a loser for not hitting the target or because i don't have the passion anymore in teaching. yes, teaching. little do people know that i would love to be a teacher. my parents are teachers. i grow up with many teachers around me. and i have always admire teachers.
my mother is a teacher by profession and passion. i love it when she talks to us about her days in school, her students, her staffs and teachers (both my parents are high school principles), her works, teaching materials and what not. her bonding with the students and even her ex-students are just lovely. i just know in my heart that being a teacher is a very noble thing to do.
mak and ayah on 25.7.15 gambar curi otw ke airport :p
but enough with my dream of being a teacher. the timeline might change again someday, i don't know for sure haha. nevertheless, being a murobbi is also being a teacher. alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. thank you Allah for the opportunities. with my flaws and imperfections, i'll try to conduct this one title as best as i could. murobbi. i'm still learning and will always do to be a better one, insyaAllah.
so today is the first day of school and hopefully it is the final chapter of my master study here. no expectations just hopes. big hopes in many things. it ain't be an easy semester but i'm really looking forward for what Allah has prepared for me.

Thursday, February 25, 2016

temporary sadness, eternity happiness insyaAllah :)

from someone. too beautiful not to be shared.

The word (الحزن) "sadness" does not appear in the Qur'aan except in the form of forbidding it

(ولا تهنو ولاتحزنوا)

or in the form of negating it

(فلاخوف عليهم ولا هم يحزنون).

And the reason for this is because there is no benefit for having sadness in the heart. The most beloved thing to Shaitan is to make the believing slave sad by taking him off track.

The Prophet (ﷺ) sought refuge in Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) from sadness

(اللهم إني أعوذ بك من الهم والحزن)

Ibnul Qayyim رحمه الله said: "Sadness weakens the heart and diminishes determination and wanting to go forward. And there is nothing more beloved to the Shaitan than the sadness of a believer."

For this reason, be happy, optimistic and think good about Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى). Have trust in what Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) is able to do and depend on Him. You will find happiness and pleasure in all situations.

Ibnul Qayyim رحمه الله said: "Don’t ruin your happiness with worry, and don’t ruin your mind with pessimism. Don’t ruin your success with deception and don’t ruin the optimism of others by destroying it. Don’t ruin your day by looking back at yesterday.

If you think about your situation, you will find that Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) has given you things without asking, so have trust in Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) that He doesn’t prevent anything you want except there is goodness for you.

You could be sleeping and the doors of the heavens are being opened with dua’as being made on your behalf, SubhanAllaah: perhaps from someone poor whom you helped, or someone sad whom you brought joy, or someone passing by and you smiled at him, or someone in distress and you removed it.. so don’t ever underestimate any good deeds."

One of the righteous predecessors said:

"I make dua’a to Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) for something I want, and if He gives it to me then I’m happy once and if He doesn’t give it to me then I’m happy ten times because the first was my choice and the second was Allaah’s choice."

As Sa’ady (رحمه الله) on him said: "Life is short so don’t shorten it with worries, grief, and sadness."

So be the owner of a heart that breathes happiness and satisfaction.

May Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) make your times happy and may Allaah (سبحانه وتعالى) forgive us all.

Allah knows best..

diary: 25/2/2016. happy anniversary mak and ayah. 26 years and still counting.
may Allah makes me the joy of you both now and in the hereafter.
ameen ameen ameen.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

good life.

I want to wake up in the morning with the sun
Wear a smile, go out and have some fun
Going to take away the worries on my mind, oh
Put them to one side

Cause everyday is like a brand new story
With unwritten lines
And no matter the weather
It's going, going to be alright
(Good Life by Harris Jung)
[Victoria Harbour Promenade, 230216]
Somehow managed to follow what the lyrics said haha. Very into these couple of week's mood.
Anyway, found more new ways to serenity. Alhamdulillah.