the reason.

target and lock.

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I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to You
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want You to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

the reason by hoobastank.

songs. one of my favourite thing back then (well actually even today but i am being very selective now). those jahiliyyah that i have been trying to change. and alhamdulillah it is getting better with time. tsumma alhamdulillah.

but still, once i listen (accidentally anywhere) to them, they keep on playing in my head for a while.

yesterday, a dear ukhti was mumbling the song. the reason. it is amazing and sad to be honest that i can recall clearly the voice of the singer, even vividly remember the video clip. duhhh.

everyone has their own struggle. i have said this million times and i will say it again and again. when people do not know, Allah knows. the struggle when it is for the sake of Allah, just do it. pray to Him for strength and ease, pray for Him to be pleased with us. and keep on praying because we do not know whose prayer Allah will answer the first.

quoting the words of another lovely ukhti of mine from our shoot and spill,

Because in the end it's Allah that you want.

:)

إِنَّ الَّذينَ قالوا رَبُّنَا اللَّهُ ثُمَّ استَقاموا فَلا خَوفٌ عَلَيهِم وَلا هُم يَحزَنونَ

 Indeed those who say, ‘Our Lord is Allah,’ and then remain steadfast, they will have no fear, nor will they grieve.

(46:13)

 many can say, ‘Our Lord is Allah,’

but not all can  then remain steadfast.

Ya Allah, make my heart firm upon your religion and in a state of obedience to you.

Allahumma ameen..

dedikasi khas untuk cinta.

a lovely date. a date where Allah sent you to this world and eventually met us years later.

alhamdulillah. thank you Allah for the opportunity.

the only picture that has only the two of us :)

ummi, i still find it hard to express myself. and i am not good at giving love dedication as you did
(link for motivation in times of need). and i know that you won't be reading this.

your voice. we still listen to our usrah recording, our phone sharing, your taujihat and your tausiyah. we still remember the shared moments. we miss you and you will always live in our heart. may you rest in peace in jannah, biidznillah.

وَالسَّابِقُونَ الْأَوَّلُونَ مِنَ الْمُهَاجِرِينَ وَالْأَنْصَارِ وَالَّذِينَ اتَّبَعُوهُمْ بِإِحْسَانٍ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُمْ وَرَضُوا عَنْهُ وَأَعَدَّ لَهُمْ جَنَّاتٍ تَجْرِي تَحْتَهَا الْأَنْهَارُ خَالِدِينَ فِيهَا أَبَدًا ۚ ذَٰلِكَ الْفَوْزُ الْعَظِيمُ

And the first forerunners [in the faith] among the Muhajireen and the Ansar and those who followed them with good conduct - Allah is pleased with them and they are pleased with Him, and He has prepared for them gardens beneath which rivers flow, wherein they will abide forever. That is the great attainment. (9:100)

semangat. fuuhh.

insyaAllah, bakal bermusafir ke bumi cahaya matahari untuk menunaikan amanah berkongsi sesuatu.
himmah 'aliyah.

maksudnya kehendak,  pendorong dan semangat yang tinggi.

tolong promote :)

 Allahu. tak pasti adakah kerana aku masih tak settle pasal ni? teringat seorang ukhti pernah cakap, dia diberikan taklifan untuk memberi satu pengisian kepada kami tapi sebenarnya dia merasakan pengisian tu adalah untuk dirinya sendiri. seolah-olah Allah menyuruhnya untuk mengingatkan diri sendiri sebelum menyampaikan kepada kami. dan aku? tak pasti. mungkin juga begitu.

ramai yang berkata, orang sekeliling kita adalah ujian buat kita kerana kita masih belum lepas ujian tersebut. lebih khusus, mutarabbi kita adalah seperti kita. masalah mereka sama seperti masalah kita. semahunya kita membantu meraka, semahunya dan sebaiknya itulah kita perlu membetulkan diri sendiri terlebih dahulu. benar. tak semua masalah mutarabbi akan sama macam kita. tapi hakikat hal-hal yang sama ni perlu difikirkan.

himmah 'aliyah.

pernah sekali dalam usrah summer yang lalu, naqibah bertanya apakah motivasi dakwah kami? yang terutamanya pastilah syurga. menjadi penghuni jannatul firdaus dan bertemu Allah dengan tersenyum dalam kedamaian! tapi aku akhirnya memberi jawapan yang aku rasakan lebih praktikal. antara motivasiku atas jalan ni adalah himmah 'aliyah sosok para penggerak dakwah.

alhamdulillah. Allah mengizinkan aku berjumpa ramai super saiya dalam gerabak dakwah ni. mujahadah mereka, tadhiyyah mereka, kecintaan mereka, semuanya memberikan aku motivasi di saat melemah dan futur. tak terkecuali juga mereka kader-kader dakwah yang di luar sana. para ikhwan misalnya. sangat amat termotivasi dengan mereka. teringat-ingat wajah mereka yang dijatuhkan hukuman gantung mandatori dan juga hukuman penjara.tapi mereka nampak tenang. tenang menerima berita kematian. tenang mengetahui akan terasing dipenjara. tapi aku tahu, mereka juga tenang kerana akhirnya akan berehat daripada dunia yang melelahkan ni. mereka tenang. jauh lebih tenang daripada aku yang tidaklah terganggu gugah dengan ujian sebesar ujian mereka. malu.

kata seorang tokoh ahli sufi, abu al-qasim al-junaid:

jagalah himmah kamu kerana ia adalah permulaan bagi semua perkara.

T_T